Drunk

...or prettly close to it. i promised i myself i would try and capture the moment of when i was drunk but it seems as far as my grammar goes i cannot be swayed sober or otherwise. to type that last sentence alone took many punchings of the delete button. I AM THE GENTLEMANS GENTLEMAN haha fuck. so my brother took me out to a local bar with his friend and my gf ELisha and my other friend jazmine. we had a merry time. i drank JUST the right amount to the point in which i wasnt blacked out but i was definitely drunk. im still in it now. my brother said to drink water. so now i am personally forcing myself to stay awake so i can pee everything out before i sleep. it will make it much easier to do it from my computer chair than climbing down from my loft bed every 10 minutes. whoa that sounds like im just peeing in a chair. but im not. i am seriously just coherent enough to type this but not enough to do so without mistake. i also sitting in a really weird position in my chair and also noticing how awesome this room is and how cool my fingers are for doing what they do. so that should give you a pretty good example of my state of alertness. or whatever. im sleepy. but i gotta pee so much. from an evolutionary standpoint, i wonder what matters more instinctively. peeing or sleeping? did our ancestors weigh the options like, " i have to pee, but i aint gonna be eaten by a wolf (which they havent domesticated yet)" and instead they just wet themselves for survival. who knows. i sure dont. i cant control my head.

im so glad tonight happened. i initially said i wasnt going to get drunk, but here i am, borderline drunk. i guess tonight i realized why in sitcoms and movies and in pop culture everyone goes "out for drinks". even if you dont get super drunk youre still going to loosen up. everyone at my table did. it just makes for a good time. maybe thats an analysis on society like, we should all be merry and honest with eachother because thats what being drunk is like and we seem to have a good time in that moment. ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff