Unmedicated

so it's been done. a few weeks ago, i ran out of my ADHD medication and my doctor was on vacation, so i couldnt call him for a new prescription. im sure there was some way i could get around it, but instead, i just didnt bother. and now its been two weeks without medication, and ive decided to stop for the rest of my life. id like to start learning my natural self, and this will certainly be one step in doing so.

so far, physical side effects have included exhaustion, a little more hunger, and erections lasting for 14 hours at a time. im kidding about the last one, but the first two are real. i now have to get more sleep and eat food for energy, which i imagine how real people operate. before i would power myself on the pills all day and not eat till dinner and be totally fine. mental side effects have included being more outgoing, and saying things without thinking. so socially, this has been okay in most instances. im still able to maintain control in the things i say, except now i have to do so consciously. im just hoping i dont start annoying the shit out of people. for instance, during band practice, connor was trying to talk to brandon about drum beats and i let out a loud WOO into the mic just for fun times. he thanked me and continued. its not like tourettes, but similar. so far, my friends find me more entertaining, and i can only hope its in a good way, not a clown way. what really matters is that i can maintain the same amount of focus in class and serious situations. and that's all i was worried about. at first i was thinking to get the pills for the energy boost, but it's just not worth it. so begins a new chapter of my life i guess. let me know if im getting on your nerves